why

i know he's kind of overwhelmed and i'm like. i wish there was something i could do at present to help othher than. the obvious bullshit i'm trying to do. but. god idk he hurt my f33lings a little bit so i'm hanging in the living room with the cat and. bwuh. bwuhhhh. i wanna curl up and die a little bit. frown. 

i know i talk about mormonism a lot. because living in utah it was a huge part of my formative years. a lot of the people who hurt me were mormon and their actions were influenced by mormonism. i am a different person because of those experiences than i would be without them. it is something i want to talk about. it was 14 years of my life. i'm sorry if that's annoying to you. 

i. why the fuck do you like me. do you even like me? am i just dead weight? i'm trying. i want to go on a walk but it's two in the morning