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laying on my bed with my 2 cats yesterday I built a lego giant cat, it took me 2 days but I like it it looks exactly like my cat expect my cat it shaved like a lion and it wont grow back... (he's ok it just might take a few years to FULLY grow back vet said(shaved him because tick and fleas wery horrible beyond medicine)(he's a stray now inside cat))) that's a lot of () but um yea I work soon but I feel weirdly weird I  why am I grieving I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I don't know I almost relapsed last night I stole alcohol but I didn't drink it. i go to a meeting for drug abuse Wednesday. my aunts taking me. i feel excited but ashamed

I'm an alcohlic I'm a drug addict a junkie and I cant escape it oh well