my update life

Hi, so a quick recap about me my name is Ery I'm 25 yr old my birth month is May I'm a bull I'm an introvert and right now i just feel I'm struggling with my life lmao. Over the years I just have been feeling sad I'm no longer happy like what is I'm doing wrong in life type Ish. I guess we can start with last year or maybe 2023 so in 2023 I was working at a daycare i been there for two and a half year I left right before my third year but honestly it felt like I worked there for four years it was so draining not because of the kids I love the kids it was the adults. like I believe I started working there 2021 in March bit sometimes i honestly think i started in 2020 at this point who knows. We were forever short staff, and it was full of drama. The drama wasn't no big drama it was little things you know I mean we were all women in one building watching children so little things would get blown out of proportion. Which lead to some people to up and leave and some to be let go. My plan when I original started was to work there for a year or two and start my career and phlebotomy. Well, that did not go as plan sadly. I'm still looking to do phlebotomy but that is for another story. the day has come the year 2024 so, boom I stayed until I just said fuck it, I don't care what job calls me but I'm leaving. The reason on why I wanted to leave. I wanted to leave because I'm an introvert and I do not like altercations. like I just wanted to come to work and do my job and leave. I do not want to make friends and be in unnecessary ass drama. Which means no I don't want to talk about my life outside of work and I don't want to talk about others and I just hated that the only reason they wanted to be personal and all in your face smiling is so they can have something to talk about with other people in the building. Like can we keep it professional. Like I felt like jobs is just an adult atmosphere of high school honestly. It was these group of people who doesn't like these group of people all in their cliques including the boss. It just gave me weird vibes we are adults not kids anymore act like it. I know we don't have to get along with everyone because I don't get alone with a lot of people, I'm a loner and I don't like people who tries to make me feel like their way is the best way. Do not try to change me I'm me if you don't like it, we don't have to be friends. trust me I came in this world alone and I'm leaving this world alone if we meant to be friends, we meant to be if not we just not. I just didn't like the mess honestly and the constantly asking me personal question about my life. like why you need to know if I got a man in my life. Why do you need to know where I stay at and can you come over and drink wine with me. Yeah, that's nothing of your business I'm friendly but not that friendly you don't need to know all that. That was creepy me out especially since you are my boss. like being ask those question by the person who write my cheeks is kind of weird cause we not friends you are my boss. I do not a kiss ass like the other employees I'm sorry. Then i also felt like i was constantly getting picked on cause i do not say much I just let things slide and go back to work. So, getting to the point i was back job hunting and my phlebotomy license was expiring, and I did it at the last minute. I messed myself up because now I must go retake the test to get it back. That what is what procrastination gets you. Around that time,

I just remember that a lot of drama per usual was going around that people was quitting, and some was also being let go cause of he says she say bull shit. I was just tired of the fakeness in the facility. Everyone smiling and laughing in your face but talking about you behind your back, but the pay is trash like wtf. Like be fucking for real then people constantly running telling the boss all the tea is even more crazy. Ok so I don't know how it got back to me constantly being call to the office but now it's a thing pissing me off to being put on probation cause the conversation started that I need to start being more of a lead teacher and tell the new people that they hired what to do which I was but I wasn't gone stand over them and talk crazy or nothing like that we suppose to work together I'm not they boss I can only tell them what they need to know to make the classroom run smoothly. On top of that they weren't talking about no raise neither. I can't stand when ppl doesn't want to listen to how I feel. So, I said no I don't want to be a lead teacher I'm ok cause why I can't just tell them the best way I can on how the classroom is operated and we just work together as two teachers and get the job done. I do explain the classroom it's just i can't keep watching a grown person when we got 16 toddlers running around the classroom and half crying and some not even walking yet when they supposed to be caused this the classroom where they in age of walking. i was told i need to start telling them what to do and make sure they do it and stay on them i feel sorry if I'm wrong but that's not my job they grown I can tell them but I'm not forcing no grown person to do nothing and I can keep trying to help and give them more clarity if they are confused but my focus is on the kids. Strictly the kids I can't deal I hate training honestly that's my downfall. so then after that I was being told by another employee that they was planning on moving me out of my classroom and switching me with the two infant teachers but it didn't stop there it's got worse which lead me to my decision to leave at which ever job calls me b ack first why this girl gone proceed to say they want you to quit excess me? Or find a reason to fire me. So, I'm like should I believe her but honestly, I was ready to leave any way. Why I got called in the office again and this when i got put on probation and told if I don't start improving, I would be let go. Improve of what exactly they tried to say I wasn't talking to the kids enough like bitch what? How? Ok cool they also said i need to be more like the Two-year-old teacher bitch what? i was like ok cool still did me though cause wtf u mean doesn't play i do talk to my kids I'm just all that extroverted to y'all likening. Why the next week the two-year-old teacher quit because she found a new job. Suddenly I'm getting praise taking about you are doing a good job bitch fuck you! Doing all that fake Ish. So now I finally get a call back to work at and autism clinic I took it because of more pay and I felt I can do it yeah, my mental was not all the way there that month of October i cried the whole month of October uncontrollably and i still don't know why I think I was having a mental breakdown from stress. So, I left the autism clinic in hopes for some else. Still was applying even while working at the autism facility, but no calls. so, now I'm out of a job so I

started back applying for daycares even though I said I was done working with kids for a while time for something else. Why I started getting calls back for every daycare I applied for sigh* but no other jobs sadly I went with the first call back daycare and that's for another story time. It wasn't bad but yeah. The year is now 2025 and i hate to say it but that daycare i left been contacting me none stop since I left, and I recently made the decision to go back because they offered me more pay and honestly, I don't know how to feel cause I start my first day back soon. Feel like my anxiety is kicking back in but I'm behind on bills and I'm still working on getting my phlebotomy license back and go back to college and get my LPN and once I finish with both two goals I want to go back and do EKG Tech. The thing is now I feel some way cause the girl i original worked with I was told doesn't want to work with me and she now has the three-year-old classroom which is find but it kind of make me feel like its tension, but I won’t know until my first day back. Why because how ppl keep bring it up to me like it weird, I read body language and face expression, and I don't like that. But I will probably do an update.