i only have 3 irl friends

hey, im klaudia. hopefully this won't get to the 3 girls im friends with. instead of names ill use the letter that their names begin with.

since yr7 (yr10 now) ive been friends with M. shes been my no1 friend, someone i could go to no matter what happens in my life. we were a small friend group, me, K&M. in yr9 we met L, she was new but then turned into a bitch at the end of yr9 so she decided to leave us. recently, O fell out with her friends as they were a trio and O fell left out, she decided to come to us. before O, it was me, K&M so we were a trio too. usually M would chat badly about K to me, K would chat badly about M to me and the cycle went on. i love them both dearly so i didnt know what to do. and i didnt tell them that they were badly chatting about one another (ik ik quite bitchy). i always made time for both of them but usually M would want to only hang out with me, as she didnt really like K. K would occasionally chat badly about M but would still happily hang out with her (makes no sense ik) but she didnt know M felt the same about her. when i refuse to go with M and ditch K, she felt betrayed. but what about K? what was i gonna do with her? 

few months into yr10 pass and O tags along into the group. me and K get the bus together every day with O so we knew her beforehand. O is a nice bubbly person, so you would never get the feeling that she doesnt like you (shes good at hiding it). M finally realises she can have someone to ditch the group with (O) since she doesn't know how to say no. M just stops speaking to me most of the time to just be with O. she always hangs out with her, facetimes her ect. tbh idl how i feel. i cant stop her from having friends but M just believes im jealous. i wonder of what. my only close friend is K. tbh i just want to distance myself from them because they all just irritate me (in the nicest way possible) but i just dont want to feel like this. M understood me and would always let me speak, where as when i want to speak about my interests to K especially tlou, its always ''shut up'' or ''i dont care'' or ''im not listening''. like cmon. but obvs i cant distance myself away from them as K just follows me around since she now knows M and O dont want her hanging out with them. M just usually acts all friendly when shes got nobody to walk with. i just wanna have a duo friendship rather than a group, or even better be alone.

thoughts?

(sorry if this made no sense-just a rant hah.)