Lack of time management poem

My ultimate weakness 

Time & Management 

The pair that is a necessity in life and yet such a difficulty without it

I'm not sure how long have I kept doing this

It has always been one of my defects since forever 

From lack of sleep, doing homework late, remembering stuff last minute & not caring or looking at the time infront of me

Even though if I brought all the clocks in the world and placed it on my room

I wouldn't even noticed 

I tried before, don't tell me that I haven't 

But it doesn't last long

Either from forgetting or just don't think at all

I want my break of course, without having to worry or have in top of my head all the things I should have done 

So what can I do now? 

Keep having the same cycle? Or just do something to change?

Even though if I do change, will it ever last?

Does whatever I do is an ongoing cycle? 

When will I wake up of this coma? 

When do I finally get my head straight? Even though I have nothing in the future? 

I'm dead from both the inside and out without a motivation or being proud on what i do

Time and organizing, oh how much I need you buy you are a poison for my mentally for keep doubting me, 

Playing me,

Stuck in a cell with the few clues, I yet not understand

Repeating in an endless loop of not succeeding my struggles 

Just stuck and stuck and stuck