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I wish I knew how to speak

For as long as I can recall, I’ve always struggled to find the right words to speak, let alone utter them. It’s incredibly frustrating because I understand the reason behind it: my brain processes information faster than my mouth can process and express it. This makes it especially embarrassing when it happens in front of someone or for something significant. I’ve tried various medications and treatments prescribed for this condition, but none of them have been effective. I’ve come to accept that I’ll always be a bit different, a little slower than others. And that’s perfectly okay. I’m grateful for the human experience. I can be grateful for the duality of life. Imagine if I were an ant; that wouldn’t be a very enjoyable life, would it?


Now, I can’t help but think about everything that led me to be a human. It’s mind-boggling how everything aligned perfectly for me to exist in this form. Whenever I contemplate these thoughts, I feel like I’m floating, and it’s both exhilarating and terrifying. Then, my brain instantly asks, “Why are we here?” and my stomach drops because I can’t provide an answer. How do I say anything to that? I yearn to say something meaningful, anything to that profound question, but there’s simply nothing I can say.


Anyway, I must stop writing or I’ll fall into the wonderland hole and never be able to escape. 


With all my love TT


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Skylar

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People who interact with you shouldn’t care if you struggle to speak. On the bright side at least you’re picking out the bad people from the good 🤷‍♂️


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Thank you much

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Nin

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I'm sorry to hear this. I as well also struggle with this, and it's definitely hard and embarrassing at times. ⊹˚. ♡.𖥔 ݁ ˖

I've recently found that writing these things down and giving myself time to put everything I think and feel into words is the best solution. Whether that be writing a diary entry, talking to yourself out loud, or texting to someone or that person you were talking to. ₊‧°𐐪♡𐑂°‧₊

It doesn't mean that anything is wrong with you. Every human has their flaws, and every flaw has their strengths. ˚ 𝜗𝜚˚⋆。☆

Perhaps if it's something you're especially insecure abt, you can always see a therapist or a specialist abt this and they can help you find ways to cope, or maybe there's medications or other things you haven't tried yet that can help! ♡♡♡


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Thank you for your kind words, honestly didn’t think anyone would see this haha

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