Im not ready to get married obv... but will I ever be?

hey sooo my mom kept on talking about setting boundaries and expectation to be independent as a wife in a marriage...this is a topic that I DREAD BC i dont even wanna be with a guy (I suck at talking to them let alone confronting)...like NOOOO already its an arranged one (dont judge ouch, culturally set) and now youre telling me to talk to him, I DONT EVEN KNOW HIM????

Like I appreciate that my mom addresses this topic bc older gen dont really talk abt it as they mostly prioritize get married asap as their kids studies are done. but still the fact she expects me to cooperate with a some random person...that ill live with for the rest of my life...and get kids...

what if he didnt bother to care to acknowledge who i am, what ive done throughout my lifetime, what i like or dislike? nothing! and that scares me a lot...it really does..i think my social battery may decrease if i spent time w someone like that bc im noticing a lot of people are trying to act "nonchalant" and thats terrifying to me

btw im just 19 so this isnt a first priority but still ill be stretching out my studies as much as i can to avoid getting married bc im too scared and the scary "what if" scenarios id imagine.