oh gosh here we go im scared

also im recovered bitches salmonella you better watch the FUCK out 

okay this is living proof why I should break up with my boyfriend right because he's kind of a red flag and I have a tendency of gaslighting myself to stay and reminding myself about his kind of nonexistent redeeming qualities

I don't like talking about these BECAUSE THEY'RE AWFUL AND EMBARRASSING WHICH IS WHY I NEED TO LEAVE BUT I CAN'T SO IM JUST GOING TO EXPOSE MYSELF OKAY

numero uno - he forgot my birthday 

uh yeah strong start !!!!! so after I graciously waited until like 6 pm and then ASKED HIM 'where's my hbd at hoe' ok not like that ykwim and when I asked him why exactly he waited so long for me to prompt him to greet me he told me that he was busy. BUSY

HE WAS 'BUSY' BUT WAS PLAYING FUCKING FC25 AND HAD IT ON HIS STATUS

he also replied in lightning fast speed which if you're busy shouldn't be possible but not for him I guess

might have cried a singular tear drop after that anyway

numero dos - literally won't text me

maybe he's allergic to starting conversations guys idk 

this one makes me a little bit sad too because idm starting conversations in literally any relationship but imma need you to start one convo more than once a month

and also there was this weird dry period where we just literally would only talk every two or three days lmao what the fuck

numero tres - flopped anniversary 

yeah I'm shocked we made it to a year too ngl I made him sound like a piece of crap which he was but like not on purpose he was just lousy yk

he barely even texted me and made literally no effort

you might be wondering, azeezah, what the fuck possessed you into staying in that trainwreck for a year

we went through a lot of shit together in our own personal lives and supported each other. he wasn't shitty all the time. we talked about futures and kids and families and places we wanted to live together in. yeah, you can do that with whoever but he was the first person I thought I saw a future in. he was the first person ive saw that way and the first person I fell in love with. right now I still love him very much and I wish him all the best <3 

UPDATE: I DUMPED HIS ASS IM A FREE WOMAN