mental health and life... ramble... comment if you want

it's crazy how our minds work...

I've been diagnosed with multiple things like epilepsy, anxiety, depression, and I am a borderline. 

I know I can cope with my emotions through certain ways which the Drs and my family say is unhealthy but I don't want to go to psychology because then I'll have to talk about past trauma which would literally be so fkn annoying, I hate crying and they'll just keep forcing me to say stuff which I don't want to talk about. 

If I'm stuck in an awkward situation with someone like I feel like I've done something wrong, I put my nails into my leg... idk. 

If i fight with someone, I apparently gaslight or stone wall them which I've been told by my sister. I just would rather not fight and just stay silent to get over things so like I calm down and so does my sister. That isn't wrong right?