How much an environement can affect you (esp school)

Hello spaciesss!! i came back home today from a long day of fun at school, and i was reflecting back on it, this topic came into my mind that i felt the need to post about it

two years ago, (2023-2024) i was in a private school that Completely ruined me, mentally yet physically. i used to always get picked on, i didnt have friends, my class was HORRIBLE, the exact environement i was in, has slowly started getting into me, ruining me mentally as i started overthinking every single thing, to the point that i just wanted to dissapear each second of my time in there, it has ruined my social abilities, my skills, my confidence, literally everything ever, even outside of school, i used to be so traumatised to the point that if i hear someone laugh id automatically assume it was bc of me, mind you, i looked completely normal, i dressed normal, i acted normal, yet i got picked on 24/7. mind you the school was so small, yet so depressive, the sun was barely hitting it. i never really fit in...but because of all of the above, i have failed my senior year.

fast forward into summer, i usually spend my summers taking care of myself, trying to heal, i was happy ill never get to see these people again, i thanked god for failing  because if i would've passed i wouldnt really live a good life, you may ask, what the fuck happened after summer???

well, i went to a public school to re do my year, and if you dont know, public schools here are waaaaay bigger and way more free, the schedule isnt so charged that lakes you want to come to school, people here are of different styles and lifestyles, you can fit in easily without even trying, im not saying this place doesnt have bad people, but it mostly has great and amazing people. i have a way funnier class, respect is everywhere, the teachers are so nice, studying and going to school doesnt feel like a chore anymore, and every once in a while, activities are up!! you express yourself freely, and all of this, with time, heals a traumatised person, i feel way happier, way fulfilled, my confidence is over the top, i am top 10 of my class, im apparently a really good actor, and i got a diploma for it, i discovered new things about myself that i didnt know i couldve. life is good,

the only thing to conclude with, and id like you to keep in mind;

Behind every bad thing is a good one.

if you struggle with anything and you want someone to talk to, id be more happy to help, i know how it feels like.