love, or limerance - its nothing. 🧡🐦‍🔥🔥

It's his actions that spoke the truth, blinded behind those hazel eyes. I hide away, bangs covering my face, lace around my heart like a child's valentine, my heart is folded in two like a card scribbled with words that aren't legible. I remember the dance where I first looked at him in that way, February 15th. It's been a year, but nothing has changed. I would run back to may to hold back my tears in September. It's as far back as I can remember, I think about it all the time. his laughter filled the room and his smile was contagious. I caught feelings too fast and now all that remains is the past. he looked like a wolf in sheep's clothing, a devil undercover. I couldn't help but fall even further, his compliments flooded my mind all the time and I let his words get the best of me. he didnt do much, it was my mind that praised him. I felt seen for the first time, and abandoned for the hundredth time. It's all a cycle. I don't mind, when your eyes interlock with mine. it's fine. I'll leave you behind. I say things, but I don't commit. you say what you mean. you do what you say, but I can't relate. my words have meaning but don't come out right, I'm too shy to say them still they linger in my mind. you know. I apologize over nothing and it gets you annoyed, but I wonder if your compassion is genuine. I'm unsure of your true colors, your fading in the distance and your face looks blurry. your voice sounds like it's underwater, like I'm drowning in your eyes. It doesn't really matter. your tone was so confusing, I tried to understand you but I don't think you bothered to understand me. I still think about you every night, before I close my eyes and dream of you. I hope you don't look back on me with resent. I know I have no meaning to you, but darling your more than a meaning to me. do you ever think of what could of been? I doubt it. what crosses your mind when you hear my name, when you hear me speak? do you think I'm smart? do you think I'm dumb? I wonder how you perceive me. I wish I could read your mind. but it would only hurt my own feelings. goodbye lover. it was nice knowing you, love sarah.