08-wednesday february 19th 10:15pm

helllo. im doing bad. not that i will outline it here. id like to but its against the rules LOL i used to put diary entries on my neocities page but it was like actually torture. i love the concept of having my own website but i think i may comepletely scratch it make it more shitty so it doesnt SUCK ASS to code. but theres some stuff i am. not. allowed to put here bc it is social media LOL. idk maybe thats a good idea wiping the website and letting it look shitty. i was going to put a page for my ocs but it was literally so hard to code. ergh. anyway we will see. ill probably stop using spacehey if i do that. maybe i wont. i really like spacehey as a concept. i can just keep the stuff that is cool to post yknow. idk.

 in good news i dont have to go to class tommorow and didnt yesterday either. winter weather. not to be 12 i do feel like i should get like. some money back on this. im not paying tuition for the homework im actually paying extra for that. but whatever. its easy this week fortunately like easy enough that i hope we dont even go over it in class because it will waste our time. usually i DO need like... the notes to do the homework but not today. easy peasy. we probably will though. we always end up doing every problem and thats fine until we have other stuff... to do. LOL. anyway whatever easy class. which is good bc i cant think anymore my brain is mush. its mush now unfortunately. unfortunately, its mush now. my memory? ass. my attention span? ass. my ability to focus? ass. my ability to learn and apply concepts? ass. the attention span is probably my bad im always doing 2 things at once. but im not on instagram reels anymore. i wonder if my time spent away from them will help because i was so impatient with them. but also they all sucked and were designed so youd watch them for 2 minutes because thats better for the algorithm even if they dont have even like 1 minute of content yknow. idk. 

i just took a typing test like 6 times i have a wpm (with no grammar) of about 80. thats good right. idk this keyboard is so nice compared to the one i used to use.

anyway. any excuse to stay home is a good one. i like being at home its nice. my moms always worried about me isolating and i do think shes probably right but idk. i like being at home idk what to say. im an anxious person going outside is scary. and no amount of going outside is not scary ive discovered. its scary forever and then you die and you litereally just have to live with it. :/ im also like super bothered by sounds. so being around other people is... not ideal. thats all there is to it.