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i think im going to come on here more, and start doing more blogs. it feels good to type, to get out things on this keyboard because its the closest thing i have to a friend.
friends, oh the things id do for a fucking friend. a real one, who understands im not perfect, one who doesnt leave me just because they dont agree with who im with, or my life choices. one that wants to be my friend because they geniunely want to, not because of my looks...or what i have. its crazy because a year ago, i had so many "friends" lol...but now theyre non existient. even the ones who promised theyd never leave did. i am not perfect, i most definitely fuck up..like alot. but you know what? i dont deserve the way ive been treated. not one fucking bit. and i dont expect people to understand what im feeling because they didnt go through it and people are always gonna judge before hearing my side of shit because i have become irrelevant to everyone the past few months.
i have never in my life been so disgusted with the human race. this year has caused me so much pain and heartbreak and nobody gives a single fuck. my son has cancer for fucks sake, and bitches think its funny to sit here and punch me around like a punching bag when i have real life issues going on. fuck you. and fuck your fake ass "i care about you, i just dont wanna see you keep hurting yourself by being with Mark" bullshit and shove it up your ass.
if you were my true friend you would stick by me even through the hardships in life. i will always be a true friend to people i care about and im so sick of people saying im the problem before looking at the bigger picture and taking a good hard look at themselves.
nobody ever wants to take responsibility, and when im dead ill have hundreds of people say they care. thats the sickening part. but where were all of you when i was begging for help? a friend? a listening ear? fucking no where.
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dud3wheresmyd4d (Felicia)
i'll be ur friend if u want.. ik how it feels.. everyone always wants to use me and never actually cares and just... its a lot lol. im here if u wanna talk
thanks it means alot :)
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