I hate my chronically ill body

I have chronic reflux, something that could lead to "throat cancer" due to the constant damage it receives.

It's something I'll have to live with, constantly taking a pill to keep it under control.

AND I HATE IT, there are times when due to nausea I decide not to take the pill (the size of the pill makes me gag so sometimes it has gotten to the point where I vomit) and for that day I am fine BUT THE NEXT DAY I AM WITH 100% REFLUX LIKE OMG GIVE ME A BREAK