I need some advice!!

I'm going to try to put things into context... all this goes back to 2021, okay? I was a huge fan of a band and by chance I went on TikTok one of those days and saw a video about that band. 

When I saw that edit, I started following that person and we became friends. As time went by we were very compatible, I clearly realized that so My feelings started to develop and I confessed to him around mid-2021 (I met him at the beginning of January) He told me that although he also felt the same, he couldn't reciprocate my feelings because "I was at a stage where I wasn't looking for anything serious." That hurt me a lot but I understood it and we continued as normal friends (we really were friends!)I had a few boyfriends (quite chaotic)and he had a few girlfriends (which didn't last long, btw)So far everything was fine :⁠-⁠D.

The problem started in November 2024, when he replied to my Ig story asking how's it going .I just limited myself to a simple "it could be worse" and we started talking back to each other daily. At this point you might be wondering, ok.. what's the problem?The problem is that when he looked for me I wasn't feeling well, I was quite sick, I had anxiety attacks and I had lost weight drastically because of that. He understood but we still talked, only this time, he no longer answered within a minute like I used to do before and that stressed him out.So in one of the few times we talked, he confessed to me saying "I know I hurt you in the past, but I'm willing to have something serious if that's what you want, I appreciate you too much and even if we move away, we will always be the two of us again" AND RIGHT AT THAT MOMENT, MY LIFE WAS FALLING APART... AND HE WAS COMING TO TELL ME ALL THOSE THINGS?┻⁠┻⁠︵⁠ヽ⁠(⁠`⁠Д⁠´⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠︵⁠┻⁠┻ I clearly ran away. I was afraid of getting hurt like all the previous times he ghosted me. 

 and now that i'm at my best, he's the one who runs away.. what should i do? should i apologize and ask him to try again or just not try anymore?

I will read them! (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)