i hate boys

that boy i was on about in my last blog now seriously means NOTHING to me. he liked this girl for awhile and she snaked him by being like "im not ready for a relationship" and then got w another guy, the boy i liked knows i love him to pieces an would do anything to get with him, but hes just fucking me about. hes went from constantly texting and snapping me, to leaving me on opened, and he cant even look at me in school. every time i saw him id get that feeling in my stomach thats just telling me to talk to him, but now when i see him, my stomach drops and i just want to vomit everywhere, hes letting a player come between what we could ever have. i hate to say it but i dont think he ever liked me, so i have no clue what to do because i still love him but he does nothing but upset me. its ruining my mood and i begin getting mad at my own friends because they all have something i want, but will never get. i dont know what to do, because i dont want to be upset, i dont want to feel like this anymore, but i love him. its literally ruining my relationships with the people around me, because one day they all think he loves me and ill finally get what i want so desperately, then the next theyre having a go at me for letting him hurt me. idek what to do at this point, i might just attempt to get over him. it wont happen, and if it does itll take me months to truly get over him.