My depression is killing me

I really feel that I don't I do things right, I try to improve at something but I just ruin it all, I don't even know why I try to do something right, I feel like vomiting from the hatred I have for myself.

I don't feel like getting out of bed, I don't even think about taking a shower, the only thing that makes me happy is the internet, it's my only way to escape from this disgusting reality.