blog entry #1 !!!

hello! this is my first blog so i’m just gonna kinda be messing around for a little while, attempting to find some sort of structure or form to how i’ll do these.

i’m natalie! i’m a freshman, im transgender and i really really love film and writing. maybe ill just use this as a sort of diary? im not sure.

i go to an art school where im apart of their film program. its nice! i got some friends and i used to have a boyfriend, but even then, i still feel alone a lot. it’s odd, i know im not alone, but i still feel it? i should look into that.

yesterday i watched the film scream, or rather i rewatched it. that’s one of my favorites, i think that was my 4th rewatch? maybe my 5th. i fully reviewed it on my letterboxd if you wanna hear that, ill put the link in the comments or something.

here’s a poem i wrote recently, it’s called “mass market appeal”

i was raised by the


western cultures idea(l)


of what it means to be 
a good person


so saving the day and


grand gestures are how


i show my affection


and our relationship
 

means nothing if it’s not


fueled by digestible, streamlined


passionate yet shameful

sex

thanks for reading!! i’ll try and do these semi regularly, maybe every day or two