i got too drunk

for the first time in like 3 years i got extremely blackout drunk and threw up everywhere :[ but i didn’t have a hangover in the morning so i guess it was fine and it worked out okay. 

i don’t want to start the work week again but unfortunately i do have to. i work in childcare so i would never drink on a weekend and risk being hungover/put the kids in danger by me not being at 100%. 

i work through the weekend as well so probably no drinking for me. i feel really alone in this world, living alone and only working to survive 

i hope im not becoming an ~alcoholic~