i miss you

god okay so this might be a little personal but whatever. im kind of at the end of my rope. the job that ive had for years that i wanted but was kinda shitty to me at times. uh. has. well in any case lets just say im out of a job. and a lot of the people im closest to are long distance so. idk it's just been hard. i don't like living alone i've been feeling pretty isolated as of late and i've been having a rough time finding direction.

the months im supposed to wait between seeing you are getting harder and harder to deal with, especially without the buffer of going to work and coming home every day. im trying to get myself back on my feet, but ive spent more than a few days in a row just lying in bed staring at the ceiling with no direction. in between ive been looking at job offerings and trying to get myself together enough to seem like a person but im just lonely and i just miss you. every day i find myself chasing sleep because my dreams are the only place im able to see you.

maybe i should try to follow that map you left me. i just need to see you again. and please, more than just a day or two next time.