anxiety I think i have it (I think my consular said i did have it) and a rant maby rant's

SO i think i have anxiety and im "journaling" about it i guess. and music kinda helps but sometimes it just increases it but like i kinda wanna go to counseling but like i don't because ill have to leave class and junk but i just want to calm my nerves really but like i dont know how to. if i go to counseling it could help but then my friends would be all like "OH really you dont need that your a man" but like i am a man but i just hate that frase. I wish i had friends like the movies but my friends are just rude. Man i hate my friends. I wish i could wear what i like but my "friends" would call me "gay" and i like gay people but im not gay and them calling me that just makes me feel bad its just like them calling me any other thing thats negative so  there still putting me down but like if im not friends with them then i would have NO friends and i would not be able to talk to any body but some times i really debate just having no friends and it seems nice but then i start to think about it and i realize my friends would just make fun of me and they already do that but i would have to deal with that even more. 

Uhm give any advice if you can 

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