death

one of my friends just died. im sad and ive been thinking about it alot. hes been on the news and all of our and his friends are mourning him, theyre hosting a memorial right now. hes so loved. hes someone who is so important, i realized how meaningless my death would be, no one would act like that if i died except for like my family. do have friends but we arent super close so i wouldnt impact them in the slightest if i died, i wanna be loved by people. i want friends. im so lonely and i hate being social.