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i feel that my brain is stuck in the past.
i became too attached to things that i enjoy a lot that when that thing is over, i have a hard time move on.
so i spend my days like that, always reminiscing of the good times that i miss so much. and while reminding of the good moments of your life is a nice and comforting thing, to me it gets to a point where i start suffering because of those memories, because i see how sad my life is now.
and the worst part is, i don't know how to stop. i try to tell myself that things change and nothing lasts forever, but it seems that my brain can't accept it. i feel that, in my case, nostalgia is a illness.
nostalgia has always been seen as a bittersweet emotion, because of the mix of happiness and sadness that it brings. but being constantly nostalgic is way worse because it feels that the sad part overweights that happy part, and it became really depressing.
maybe one day i'm gonna learn how to move on.
-carol
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i feel the same way
XxGeeWay (╥﹏╥)xX
I feel the SAME way, except for time I wasn’t even alive :((
oh, i feel that too sometimes
by carol; ; Report
AHAHA SAME, thats why im on this social media and im having great fun here :) i think its alright though
by Konan; ; Report
Coffee Pie
Sometimes I feel the same thing, but because of some traumas I had in the past, I think my future is a thousand times better, but I miss some moments I had (I know it has nothing to do with your blog entry, but did you use a layout to decorate your blog post like this?? It looks really cute with the light green tab and the beams at the beginning of the text!!)
no, i made it myself :) i can send the codes that i used if you want.
by carol; ; Report
I don't know if I'll actually use it since I really like mine, but I'd like to try it, if you don't mind!! <3
by Coffee Pie; ; Report
here:
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by carol; ; Report
Thanks!! <3
by Coffee Pie; ; Report
My future is brighter than some parts of my past (particularly from the ages of 13 - 16), but I can't help but notice certain things I grew up seeing around me in the even more distant past that I'm only now getting to experience firsthand for myself as a young adult (such as taking some disposable cameras with me for special occasions and on trips a few times last year as well as going down to get them developed and putting the photos into a photo album the way my folks used to when I was younger).
by xxRebellious_Emmaxx; ; Report
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you described this feeling very well, i felt immense clarity, thank you for that
Koo♡
you literally put my feelings into words. sometimes it gets to the point where it's hard to fully stay present and be in the moment because im constantly feeling sad abt the thought that this moment will soon become merely a memory that i can never experience again. ive never met anyone who felt the same way :"")
oh, i also feel this way. sometimes, right after some good moment i had ends i feel a sense of sadness thinking about how is only gonna be a memory now, is so awful
by carol; ; Report
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Me too; it makes it so hard for me to let go of not only things such as objects and things I used to enjoy but also people. I wish people didn't have to change, I just want to bathe in what they "were" but to me, that's how they will always be. I hope one day all of us will still be able to cherish those memories, yet still take a moment to accept the present. <3
Mavin
omg yess i feel so understood D: I hate changes so much and i spend so much time thinking about how things used to be that i sometimes miss out on the present life :// nostalgia will be the death of me one day
yeah, i hate changes, specially when things change abruptly and i cant fully process it. like, until today it seems that my brain cant accept that i aleardy finished school (my last year was on the pandemic so you already can imagine)
by carol; ; Report
omg yesss :0 i'm often like: "wdym i'll be an adult soon.. i just finished primary school not so long ago" (it was in fact long time ago.) i just miss it so much that i haven't accepted that this time has passed, and that i had to change schools, and i have now different friend group and stuff- like wdym me and my friends from previous school don't have contact any more :// why did we stop talking so fast after the end of primary school (it wasn't fast lol, we just lost contact gradually but i somewhat still can't accept it). I miss everyone i've met in my life, i miss who i used to be and who i could have been now if i had made different decisions back then.
by Mavin; ; Report
xxRebellious_Emmaxx
I'm the same way as you, except parts of it are genuine nostalgia and other parts are purely anemoia.
What has helped me was to bring the good and cool parts of the past into the present since time travel to the past isn't a thing yet. It doesn't get rid of the nostalgia and anemoia, but it does make it so that those things are no longer confined to just nostalgia or just mere curiosity/existential resentment over not getting to experience certain things as a result of having been born too late and to build even better moments and memories based on incorporating those things into my current lifestyle and live out my life to the fullest, the way it was meant to be.
i think a very big aspect of my nostalgia is anemoia too, theres a post who i saw some months ago, that said "stop romanticising your past, you were miserable back then too" and i always try to keep on my mind for when i start to feel nostalgic for a clearly idealized past
by carol; ; Report
"stop romanticising your past, you were miserable back then too"
I'm sorry, but that person's caption feels pretty ignorant to me, as not everyone was so miserable in the past (and perhaps didn't really have the capacity yet to be so miserable back then, especially if they were a child at the time) as they are now. Your past may have genuinely been better than your present depending on your circumstances and other factors.
And likewise, the reverse may be true for some people depending on the individual's life circumstances and cases where they improve over time as the person gets older and gains more control over their own lives. However, everyone's life turns out differently for them and it's not very fair to just assume that someone's life was the same in their past as it is now.
I don't think it would be a very fair comparison to say that my overall life and reactions to negative things in 2011 were the same as my overall life and reactions to negative things in 2020, or that my overall life and reactions to negative things in 2020 and 2025 are the same, either (unless it comes to my anxiety, as I've had generalized anxiety for almost as long as I can remember with a very early onset, and if anything, my anxiety has only improved throughout the years). But maybe that's just me, I don't know.
by xxRebellious_Emmaxx; ; Report