Late Night Thoughts

Okay, I'm... not sure what a blog is or how to do it, but... uhm... I'll just... say random things. (type)

HELLO!! I'm Manga! I love Kasane Teto / Teto Kasane and I'm not very good with social stuff. I'm more a shower rather than a speaker!! You can learn all you need to about me on my space!! Uhm... yeah!

... It's raining right now. It's very lonely out here. I live in a small town, with my family, but I tend to spend most of my time by myself, with my two cats. I have no friends around here and it's very quiet, almost completely surrounded by forest. It's cold. It rains sometimes. You never see anyone unless they're going to work or catching the bus, or going home. I feel very sad at night, sometimes. Tonight, though, I've been... happy! I think... I've never really written like this before. I might listen to some music... but... maybe not...

... It's raining right now. I can hear it flowing down the gutter and into the spout, down to the cold earth below. I think about our world often. I'm heavily into philosophy I would say, but, then again, I think many would disagree. I view our beautiful world with much praise, criticism, and fear. I wonder if I'll make it to 20. I wonder if I'll make it to 30, even. Is 40 even possible nowadays? I don't know. I wonder if I'll ever find love. I wonder if I'll ever make friends. I wonder, why?

It's still raining. Harder now, actually, as I write this. The rain usually soothes me, but every now and then it fills me with a inexplicable sense of dread. Tonight I feel that, maybe because my window is open. There are few street lights in my town. It's eerie and so very dark. I wonder if danger lurks in my town. Maybe, maybe not... I hope not. I overthink on the silent nights. Tonight though, I wonder why. Why do I worry about the world? Why do I worry about life? Why do I worry about something as simple yet complicated as love?

... I don't know! One day it will all be gone, and none of this will be remembered, but... hmm. There are still so many things to look forward to.

The night sky. The moon. Space. Nature. Life. Love. Comets. Supernovae. Beauty. Peace. Darkness. Light. Do you know what I mean?

And rain. So, so much rain. Rain that I will love. Rain that I will hate. Rain that you will love, and too hate. But these emotions are not permanent, they are not forever. They come and they go, and happiness and calm will replace them. Understanding should, too. I believe we should all understand what we love and we hate as best as possible. Try to understand... why. Try to understand... how. Try to understand...

Everything. So that we may settle our differences, even if we hate them, and part ways, or get along. Try to understand.

Goodnight!

- Manga, with many thoughts