I hate him (I do not)

FUCK THAT NIGGA BRO but actually do I really want to hate him? Everyone says I should but I just don't feel the need to. I get mad at myself at times. I don't want anyone to think I am giving them a second chance or lacking self-respect. Instagram reels also do not help me bc the minute I even start thinking about him I get reels like "KEEP NO CONTACT" and all the hate men shit. Deep down though I still want him in my life. Not romantically, of course, I have just accepted that it just did not work out and that I was just not the one for him. I feel content with that. I no longer blame myself for the relationship ending I have just learned to accept it. No matter what I feel that I share a bond with him that I feel like I could never replace. I feel that our souls are intertwined but it was just meant to be platonic. Although the odds of a friendship forming are slim because it seems that he is not too interested and that's okay I just want him to understand that I do not hate him.   I think the relationship was rushed and pushed and it was just never going to work out plus we were still young and needed a lot more experience in things. I understand and although everyone is telling me to take it personally I just don't as much as I want to just hate you I feel that I can't and all I will ever feel is love and support for him. 

Anyways I am blessed to be taking the breakup better and taking it step by step and shit. So regardless of what anyone tells me I am proud of myself and my progress :)