missed opportunities

Ive been pretty bummed out recently thinking about the opportunities i missed by choosing an online school in 9th grade, im sort of picky with romance so it would have been easier to have a fresh start in a public school to try to find a girl, but I went to an online school so that chance was sullied, and now, february 2025, im still not in school cause of my deadbeat mother, so Ill prob have to go to an alternate / special needs school to get a grade for 10th (even though im not special needs) so in total I missed two of my highschool years, two years I could have spent making friends or getting a girlfriend, two years I could have spent having fun experiences, and Its not even in my control. fml