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I was supposed to maintain this medieval princess persona on this site, but I actually need an outlet so bad because this is really getting on my nerves.
Context: Last year, I briefly went out with this guy in my grade. I liked him because he was a tall handsome nerd that played video games and he seemed really sweet. Before me he dated this other girl, who btw doesn't go to my school. And I didn't really care about it, until my sister pointed out that I kinda had a "similar vibe???" to her when I showed her a picture.
Anyways he started showing signs of being a p0rn addict so I had to break up with him.
Fast forward to this year, this other guy started showing interest in me. He's popular and smart but also all of my friends find him annoying so I had my reserves about him. I thought he was pretty cute and he liked similar things to me (but also I felt like he was only being nice to me because he found me attractive). But then I found out he had liked THE SAME GIRL that the first guy dated. And yeah I guess I didn't really like him, but it just kind of reinforces what my sister said. Idk I kind of feel like at this point I'm just a cheap replacement and that the only reason they liked me was because I reminded them of her. I thought I was unique-looking and I assumed that was why they were drawn to me, but I feel like I've been proven wrong and that I'm not special at all.
It goes against my values to search for their validation, to find out if they really liked me for me or not, but honestly I feel like that's the only thing that can save my self esteem right now. (Though I'm not actually going to ask them because I'm not really on talking terms with either of them anymore.)
On a side note, I feel like the two guys were lowkey similar, like they're obsessed with the same female celebrity, and they both love rap music so maybe them liking the same girls is them secretly being obsessed with each other.
Anyways idk, does anyone think that they genuinely liked me, or is this actually a good reason to feel deathly insecure?
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abnegator
it's better to trust ur intuition, and even if u turn out to be wrong, it's just ur mistake, but mistakes = experience, imho
noelle ⋆♪˚𝄢
Oh yeah, should've added that I don't find me and her to be similar. We both wear glasses and have dark skin, but I think the similarities end there. I think she's south asian and I'm south-east asian so our features would be quite different. Also the type of people we hang out are very different. I should also clarify that I have absolutely no hard feelings towards her and I've never met her, all of this annoyance is directed at the two idiot guys.