Romance...

Blog moment hi

So! My first entry, on valentine's no less! So, what am I to do but write about romance?

I should start this by noting that I'm gynosexual. (Nonbinary and only attracted to femininity) but used to identify as lesbian.

My first real relationship was with someone I had known for probably 2 years, although I had known of them for about 5. It lasted about 2ish months? 2 - 5. But I know we never had a valentine's together. My main memory of us is when she had come over for a sleepover (my house) and we stayed up til midnight. My point-and-click camera keeping us entertained along with my heartstopper collection. Once I went over to her's, my main memory of that is staying up til 3am with her bracelet maker watching funkyfrogbait videos on her laptop. I ended up falling asleep on her couch and sleeping until 9am. Those were the days....

My second relationship was with another girl. Note that all my real relationships were with girls. We were only together for a week but we're still very complicated. ,,,Ok we're flirting. They say stuff to other people about apparently 'having a crush on me, and still hasn't said anything to me. Here's a literal interaction I had today.

(I had been called over by a friend to hang out for context, their other friend was also there that i've been getting to know recently)

C: ",,,If you knew someone had a crush on someone, should you tell them"

Me: "I wouldn't say anything tbh"

C: "oh. I shouldn't tell you someone has a crush on you then"

Me: ",,,What. Wait, me or K?"

C: "No k's straight."

(Cut to a little while later)

Me: ",,,regarding the crush thing-- is it someone I know?"

C: "I think so. You guys talk, -Look, do you just want me to tell you who?"

Me: "A bit."

C: "[the person]. don't tell her though. She'd like, kill me."

AND THIS HAPPENED LAST YEAR! with a different friend though. He had said that 

"A little while after we were finished hanging out, I was walking her back home, and she said she never really wanted to break up. It was just her sister made her and she was worried about kissing."

(she says her sister made her break up with me, but for all I know her "sister" might be a lie.)

And when I asked them about it, They said they were just unmedicated. Crazy stuff. They also claim their sister made them spread the rumor that I was just straight-up abusive, (which I wasn't????? ew??????) and yeah,,, Ok I'll stop writing for today. 

It's night for me, so goodnight! if it's morning for you though, Have a good rest of your day!!