You’re going to do fucking great in life.

Fuck, ion even know where to begin but ik i gotta get my emotions out somehow. This morning i woke up angry and yesterday I came home and went to sleep defeated. Im tired of feeling that way. I was angry and bitter about how alienated I feel around people and mfs will deadass sit there and clown ur entire existence based on a judgement they made up in their heads bc they Dong know shit about you. Why? Being cruel isn’t a mistake it’s taught dishonorable behavior at its finest. I was doin all my school work and Ik no shot asks or wtv tf or is reading this but, I did my school work, all of it I felt proud cuz I struggle with adhd and allat (and probably autism) my mood changed as soon as a gay person laughed at me for “looking gay” my mood wasn’t even like “ow that hurt” just, “damn.” Like really damn. Mfs will, purposely hurt you to your face for the fun of it, go on with their day and forget you even exist in an hour. Tgat feels dystopian to me. Do we really live in a society where, being cruel is just that normalized for the sake of it? And ik kindness can’t just exist outside of hatred it’s like yin and yang I get it life and all things need balance, but it doesn’t take much to at least try to be a decent human being. Not only are you rude to me, but were kin. We’re both lgbt and yet you feel entitled to make fun of me to impress your straight white friends? I was upset about like, not mad not sad just damn. Then I remembered something, these mfs don’t got NO plan. they follow the leader and that’s why most people fail in life. Work at McDonald’s, live with their parents at 30, become baby mamas and baby daddy’s at 22, drop out of college, GO to college just bc. Pathetic. We live on a giant fucking rock full of so many opportunities and yet you settle for less. You choose to be cruel and what does that get you? Nothing. You choose the life style you wanted in that moment now look at you. I’ve seen, people so talented, in piano, art, writing, etc etc etc and they do NOTHING with those talents. “Just a hobby, ima go to college cuz my mom told me to.” “I’ll figure it out” man. Your not living. Nor do u have ur own personal life. Ur just existing as if someone else is in control when YOURE in the drivers seat. Only you know where your going and only you have the map and keys to go there. Being a doctor is great if your dream is to save lives, if your inspired to do good for the people, but if your just doing it for greed, to forget, to find something to do bc someone else told u to then ur not controlling ur life at all. I’ve been harassed, bullied, traumatized wherever tf u wanna call it and I ain’t never gave up on my dreams, goals, or ideals. I am going to have generational wealth, I am going to write my books, animate my shows, direct my movies. And the whole fucking world will know my name. Go ahead bru call me corny say I’m a loser idgaf. I have a plan what’s ur plan? Smh, mfs tried to dox me that’s why I haven’t been on ts. Bullied me for not being a pussy and standing up for myself, spreading false ass rumors. Fuck you. I’m going to win in big finna lose to a bunch of low lives who can’t even decide what they wanna eat today. Make your choices. And live with them. You’re gonna be famous too whoever’s reading this, youre gonna fucking make it. Idgaf if the universe itself told u you’ll fail u get tf back up and u prove here mfs wrong. Fuck those doxers, fuck the ppl at school, fuck all of yall. Ppl say to stop caring but caring and emotions are human. Maybe the art of not giving a fuck, IS TO GIVE A FUCK. And to move on once that fuck is given. Driana out.