I’m Unsure ATP

I just got out of a relationship with my partner. It was… abrupt I guess. We had this plan for me to move in with them and get engaged and stuff but I wanted to wait another year to get my stuff together. They said they weren’t sure they could do long distance much longer. At that point I felt I should just let them go because I also didn’t want to feel rushed. 

I regret breaking up with them so much. Like- I’m so in love with them. I asked if there would be a chance at getting back together and they said to give it a week to see if it’s something either of us really want. But now they just aren’t texting me back. I think it might be a lost cause.

If that’s the case I’m going to focus on myself and stay with my family a while longer. I want to find a relationship closer to me so I’m not doing long distance again. But at the same time I live in the country with a lot of Trump supporter, homophobic red necks. It might be impossible for me to find a guy OR a woman. ESPECIALLY one that can accept me for me considering I’m bigger. Like… come on now.