second best AGAIN

so I was wrong, I am back to being a loser teen. I feel like its selfish to want to have someone to yourself like your own best friend. this isn't even about friends. It feels like I'm so far away when I'm actually right next to you. maybe it was casual from the start, who knows atp. so like yea wasted what a month ish for no progress?? I cant tell if I'm tripping or not

-quixotic mf