HUMILIATION AGAIN...

i knew it was a dumb idea to try to talk to anyone. each time I try to be social I end up doing something totally wrong. today I thought that someone was on my friends list, so i replied to a blog of theirs, talking to them as if they were MY friend. turns out I had only sent them a friend request and it wasn't accepted yet, but my memory is so bad that i didn't even realize that they weren't on my friends list. so me talking to them like that made it seem like i was pressuring them to accept my friend request. i seemed kind of creepy too because i don't know how normal people talk. i deleted the comment, but the internet is weird and likes to torment me, so maybe the comment didn't actually get deleted, and now i'll have to disappear off of the face of the internet again for the 5th time and recreate yet another account on every sns platform with a new name and face and personality. why does this happen to me?! does anyone have any tips on how to be normal, or should i run into traffic already and spare the world from the second-hand embarrassment that comes from my existence?! i'm only joking though...