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im just gonna get straight to the point
its the day before my birthday and ive never felt more unloved and scared in my life,
all has gone wrong,
my boyfriend was ghosting me while i was violently convulsing and throwing up and didnt reply for over 14hrs,
my friends are replying few and far between, they only want to get in my pants anyway
my mother made the only dinner that i physically cannot eat without being nauseous
im so hungry and i just cant stop crying and sending people horrible messages
i sound like such an asshole but i have so much pent up anger at these disgusting people and i cant keep going like this
i dont want to die but living feels like a black hole of bleakness, chronic anxiety and pain.
but anyway, it may already be my birthday where u are, (feb 13th)
so happy birthday to me, since i doubt my boyfriend will say it.
-ilya
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Murkysweetleaf
Oh dear, I really hope things get better for you. That sounds so horrible I wish there was more I could do to make things better for you. I hope you can keep on going though the darkness seems to last forever I hope the sun will come up for you soon. Happy birthday, I hope tomorrow is a really amazing day for you, you deserve to be happy.
and i hope u have an even better day for commenting this <3 \(╹ڡ╹ )
by ILYA; ; Report
Thank you! <333
by Murkysweetleaf; ; Report
FuzzyFox
Hey, I'm sorry to hear that. It's a tough time for you but that doesn't diminish your value and doesn't mean you're not a great human being! If you feel down it's best to let out your emotions. Might feel sometimes like it's bothering or too negative for other people but that's better than bottling them up. I'm sure it will get better and your birthday is still special because that's when we got to share this world with another great person :) I hope you'll have a great birthday! It's not yet the 13th where I am but in case it is for you: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I WISH YOU LOVE AND LIGHT AND HEALTH AND A LONG HAPPY LIFE
Take care!
thankyou so much lovely (；′⌒`)
by ILYA; ; Report