life update + my elementary school story

HAIHAI!!! havent been using spacehey, this gaming laptop AND making a blogg....

but anyway.. heres a life update btw.

ive enrolled to a new school , but the worst thing is that.... im in peralihan/transition WHICCHH means i have to start studying again + study for my nativ3 language but like the thing is...

why are we even learning mandarin in school THEN learn malay in secondary school??? seriously... the school system there is like a misunderstood lemon, where u misunderstood the lemon as orange.

the guidance counselor in my old school was. helping, not helping. at the same time.

you told them you felt like u dont fit to society, they tell you meditate, eat well, write diary, sleep well, repeat. honestly, i did those, its working, really. but now, its just. kinda borinng 2 me.

they brought out papers to write our emotions, feelings and our mental health. those who wrote negative words on them or showed their bad mental health, were sent to a room where guidance counselors tell us the meaning of life, be positive, love yourself and relaxation, we stayed there until school ended.

one of them asked me if ive been having su1c1dal intentions, i respond with a yes. she was quiet but told me i can come over to the counselor's office. i did came 2 there office, except that was when i was crying ugly-ly cus of my stoopid teacher.

kids there told me the guidance counselors had been calling their parents, but i dont know abt mine. my parents never talk 2 me abt it. it just makes me think, is it that they dont have my parrents contacts and forgot to ask? or is it that my paremnts just brushed it off?

at that time, i was also worried for the kids with abusive parents or an abusive member of their family. no. please dont tell me that they just have the typical "asian household" family. i may not talk to them or were not friends, but i was actually concerned abt these kids and wondered what their parents says when the counselors called them.

anyhow, ill stop using instagram someday and start using spacehey or facebook.

peace out