Chat. (VENT)

I have been overthinking and so overwhelmed and my friend text a GC me and everyone else was in and said “yeah don’t that’s gross no offence” JUST CUS MY GF SAID ILY IN THE CHAT TO ME? And I got really sad and at break barely anyone talked to me and the girl who to extend that it was “gross” didn’t even come up to us usually she does and she hugs us and is just so happy and when ppl were leaving after break I ended up hugging my gf (her name is Charlotte btw) and I ended up just full blown crying into her neck and shoulder and it felt so embarrassing, and the worker that runs the chill club asked me to go to a support base for children and I said “I wanna stay with Charlotte” and she the worker said I couldn’t Cus she has class and when she told Charlotte to go the last thing char said to me was “Bye priya” and she sounded so sad, so now I’m in this support base in a staff room/kitchen? Crying slowly writing this, but I got a hot chocolate out of this so I guess that’s something? It’s weird I can “smell” my gf on me? Ig? It makes it feel like she’s with me and that makes me both sad and happy, I feel so bad for putting my gf into an uncomfortable situation she must hate it, I am such a bad gf.

(Sry if there’s any spelling mistakes)