mini dilemma / rant

i just realized that i am soo dependent on the internet for creating my digital identity and curating my hobbies and interests and looking for inspiration and drive and the ONLY time i focus on the real world is when i go out with friends n spend time with my partner but i miss doing other things outside as well, or not even OUTSIDE, just out of my computer

“if you don’t exist on social media, you don’t exist as a person” - said nobody ever, but that’s how it feels a LOT of the time. (imo) i feel like our personhood is highly defined by how we act and present ourselves online, and the way people perceive us can also influence our own idea of ourselves

there are also times where people barely have an online presence to preserve the vagueness and lack of perception others have upon them, and i guess i do envy those ppl, because what a dream it would be to be barely known by others and only remembered through bits and pieces of memories they have of you, even if unreflective of your current self. still, i believe there is even a tiny amount that a person shares of themselves online, and that does bring me back to my point above ^

tldr; i’m grateful to have been born in the 2000s but also just as afflicted