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1) i refuse to look at myself in the mirror when it's dark and the lights aren't on because i feel like i'm going to see a monster when i see myself
2) sometimes i am dissociating so 'hard' that i don't feel real, like my body does not feel physically real, so when this happens i tap myself on the nose to remind myself i have an outside / a body others can see & feel
3) when i get really anxious or overwhelmed, i hit or scratch my legs. not to hurt myself, more-so absentmindedly, because i just need to stim really badly and it's the most potent thing i can think of to distract myself with. this actually does hurt less than it helps
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francis, fran
okay so for the boiling water one is it like, you forget what the appearance of a rolling boil looks like?
maybe just think 'bumpy' and 'turbulent'
i'm almost sensing an implication of like, your brain being unable to recall boiling from a purely geometric standpoint
as in the ability to distinguish standing water from bumpy water
idk
strange though
not really in a bad way
just kinda unique
well. okay yeah no it's not like that. it's more like i'll see water that i know is hot with a bunch of those tiny bubbles in it and i'll be like "hey that looks like boiling" but then it's not
by benny // whalefall; ; Report
i guess i am just consistently wrong about what slightly boiling looks like. but i know that water that is really fucking boiling looks like you stirred it a bunch because the heat makes it move
by benny // whalefall; ; Report
Its simmering vs boiling. When you see those tiny bumps, that's simmering. What happens is slowly the bumps get larger as it reaches its boiling point where the water makes a rapid phase change from liquid to gas (the reverse of condensation). When the bubbles are larger than those tiny ones and come up faster than the tiny ones its a boil. Otherwise its a simmer
by SPOOKY; ; Report
wow!! you’re so smart!! and ig i’m really good at spotting when water is simmering XD
by benny // whalefall; ; Report
Yeah, a lot of times you can use a simmer as a boil it will just take longer to cook
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CH3RRY_B0M85
I fucking hate mirrors. and windows. so yeah I approve of avoiding those mirrors frfr.
you hate windows?
by benny // whalefall; ; Report
Oh yeah. If I go to someones place and they have no blinds or curtains I lose it a bit. If a window doesn't tint in the sunlight it's iffy but I let it pass during the day. At night if the windows are closed, locked, and covered I cannot go within view of it. Funny thing is I love going out at night, just can't stand when the outside can see in or something like that.
by CH3RRY_B0M85; ; Report
AREN'T*
by CH3RRY_B0M85; ; Report
huh. i kinda get it
by benny // whalefall; ; Report
sam
huh... im gonna try to remember that second one lol i wonder if itll help
…you too, huh?
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