My mom

One of the reasons I want to die is my mom she makes me feel loved wanted happy but the next second she hates me she makes me feel like everything is my fault like I am the reason her life is so shitty

She doesn't me very much and that's ok I don't like her very much either I spend my whole life doing the best I could to build a relationship with her but now I just hate being near her hate knowing I can't he angry at her for long and I hate believing it's my fault. 

Se once said no one would love me because I didn't cut a chicken hahah isn't it great? She said my dad only loved me so much because he didn't need to spend more than a day with me like for fuck sake woman if you hate me so much just thrown me away already fuck! 

I hate being alive good night everyone

Before I go I went to school today it was a good first day I am in the same class room as my friend and I think it won't be that bad of a year my cat just got here so I just take a bath and sleep bye now