Science class boy update

SO. STUFF HAS HAPPENED. and its good stuff btw! i actually got to know logan more, and holy shit, MIGHT be the best decision of my life bcs...HE IS LOWKEY SO SWEET AND FUNNY WHATTg1g!!!!!!!!!!!

i asked for his discord a while back ( like a week ago) and goddamn this kid is js so silly. he got that silly funny aura to him and its like...WE HAVE A LOT IN COMMON, but not too much to the point it feels like we dont have any cool differences or what not. Logan genuinely is understanding and sweet and he even joined my minecraft realm and we've played occasionally with my other online friend!!!!!!

AND HE GETS ALONG WITH MY ONLINE FRIEND TOO!!!!! lIKE???? I THINK HE FITS IN.

to me, this is just such a big deal. i try making friends in school, but none really stick. its usually just passing convos in class, and i ask for their number, but then we never really end up talking more. it makes me upset but its just how things usually went. logan is different tho. idk what exactly, but i can feel it. he's a good kid.

and, about my "crush" on him. honestly....im putting it on the shelf

sure, im positive if i asked him out he would say yeah, but, heres the thing. i feel like i should grow to trust him more on a friend level, earn his trust, become super close, share secrets, hang out often, all that bs, before i even CONCIDER dating this guy. he IS cute, but if i date him now,it just wont rlly be worth it, and i dont think neither of us are ready.

....and besides, I THINK HE'S STRAIGHT, and im genderfluid...so...maybe it'll be easier to stray away from feeling like we should date cuz of likee uhhh his sexuality and religion and shit.

im seriously glad i connected with this kid, and i plan to write him a big thank u letter for being my friend on valentines day along with making one for ghostly and cinni...i just need to make time for it.

PS: i just did the pacer test and im sore. i did rlly bad on it and got 14. sigh.

-Cozmite