𝔄𝔪 𝔦 𝔱𝔬𝔬 𝔦𝔪𝔭𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔢𝔫𝔱?

Since my ass hates to write into my diary ill just slap it into spacehey, plus i want to hear someones opinion abt it. :L

Sooo for me its really hard to fall in love (SO CRAY CRAY LOLZ) 

But i met this girl online and weve been Friends for now a couple of months uhh like.. 6-7 months? And we alr did sm shit together its unfunny. N we literally yap abt the deepest shit, im not gonna reveal WHO it is or WHO her ex is im not that cray cray but she had a huge problem like a year ago and she still has it. 

She has very bad attachment issues w her ex n i helped her through the months n i learned abt her being ace (not interested in sexual relationships) n how hard it is for her to fall in love too n we both developed feelings for each other, its all cute n sweet ofc but i keep getting hurt by my own delusions or whatever.. its like, she gives me compliments and says, „kiss me alr“ n all that stuff (so wattpad coded sighh :,P)  n then when i wonder if we are a thing she says „not yet“ or „i wanna wait more“ and idk but im scared shell lose interest in me bc she keeps flirting w me but is sightly dismissive when i wonder if she actually loves me a like maybe little bit.. and of course im patient but sometimes the way she expresses her interest towards me is like „oh yourse such a wonderful best friend“ like ouch? But okay ill thug it out ig idk, im just writing without fully checking if i wrote everything correctly. TwT

Such a mixed bag guys..