I. Need. Your. HELP PLEASEEEEE

Hello spacehey citizen, this is my first time writting a blog, so sorry if there are mistakes!!

Ok just like the title/subject of this blog. I need your help, why? Because im choosing whether im a "bad friend", or if my friend is the "bad friend" the story of how i got here is kinda long, but im just gonna tell you the recent incident of me with this friend of mine. (im gonna call this person S) (S is my middle school friend)

2 days ago i was online, doing nothing but scrolling through insta and tiktok, and then *ting* a notification popped up from my old childhood friend! (we've been friends for 6 years now) asking me to play roblox with her since she can use the laptop. And i said "yes!" because at that time, no one was asking me to play either and my other friends are either busy or offline and i started to became lonely (remember this, it'll be important later) and so we played roblox

It was calm and peaceful yada2 we talk and laughed since we were calling, and it was going well until she posted a screenshot of the game we were playing to her whatsapp channel thingy. And i think my friend (S) noticed the picture and recognized my avatar and then she started to.. Uh.. Idk how to explain this, but in whatsapp you can make statuses and stuff like that. So, after like 4 hours of me playing roblox with my childhood friend, i finally took a break.

I decided to look through whatsapp statuses and i saw hers, so i clicked it out of curiousity and.. I kinda regreted it.

Inside the statuses she typed out long stuff that im gonna put it on a short summary. Basically she is asking herself whether she had a heavy jealousy or not. And then she started to rant on how i "spend more time" with my childhood friend more than her??? Look, me and my childhood friend, we go to different school and we can meet like 4 times a year, or even more than 4 times a year if we're lucky. But for some reason "S" is making it seems like i met with my childhood friend multiple times and forgetting about her?? (btw she didnt mention my name but she puts "you know who u are" to almost every end of her paragraph in each slide of the statuses) which i CLEARLY know she was talking about Me.

And then she called me a coward in a different slide and how i "can live without saying hi or how are you" to my friends?? I know she is talking about ME towards HER, but the reason why i leave her alone because sometimes, when i try to reach out, she ignores my text, which in MY opinion that its a signal to leave her alone. And so this time i did (different incident btw) and then after a few days we talked like normal. But, i dont get how she thinks that im a COWARD for leaving her alone with her own time and her feelings?? Like, i just dont understand at this point.

And so i read through it all and i kinda felt guilty but i decided to just focus for the next day (sunday) because i got a competition! Yay! And she also joined that same competition !! (😭)

The next day, i picked her up and we were talking like normal, and so i thought that "maybe it was just her thoughts getting into her and she just needs some steam off of her" and oh boy i was so wrong.

And today, she did the same thing AGAIN. Basically calling people out who has multiple roblox accounts (me) and how much she wants to hack into some roblox accounts to see their activities. Wow. Just great! And in her insta notes she wrote "how can people be so mean".

Oh and i forgot to mention that, i think she thought i was playing on my other roblox account because i didnt responded to her text for 20 or so minutes, when i was actually PAINTING WITH MY MOM??? (i left my phone in my room bcs it was charging)

So uh, in conclusion, should i tell her what i REAAALLY feel about her and make things straight, or do i just live with it? Both of the options seems deadly to me because of how she is but PLEASE PLEASE PLEAAASEEEE if any of you are kinda experienced with this, pls let me hear what ur opinion is or just your thoughts pls, thank you!!!

(pls dont be mean bcs im actually trying to understand her but it just makes me suffers and hurt me so plspls educate me guys)