Im in purgatory

More like purr-gatory :3

Anywho I escaped hell, using a piston, a ladder, and an ender pearl- no not the nether. My fault, I am currently in a dire situation, i did break out of hell but to make a long story short, my throat hurts. Anywhos I have escaped hell and am in the in-between of heck and the overworld. And its very grey.

It's rocky and full of mountain peaks, there's this guy in the distance pushing a rock up a mountain... hope he's doing well. Anyways I have been wandering for a couple of eons now and... honestly, I don't mind.

To think that some of us may never even be able to see views like this- not like purgatory but in general: mountains or valleys. I have always been so hermitised because of my social awkwardness and I am glad to just be here, in this space. It's so 60° here, and everyone is gasping for air. Since I'm not set to be in purgatory I'm just a visitor so nothing bad is happening to me. So atheists... you better get to repenting, he's always forgiving. 

Anyways, preaching aside, I really haven't been feeling well... I had a friend I cut off, he wasn't like bad or anything but he defo was growing distant from me. I'd text him EVERY month and check up on him but it's clear he didn't care about me, or atleast he didn't see me as that much of a friend. He always seemed so dismissive and just wanted me to stop talking.

So I just left him, figuratively.

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I'm so lonely, I'm so tired of not having anybody, I just want people to be there for me. He may not have been entirely conversational but atleast when I needed his time he was there, atleast I had someone to share things about themselves that wasnt so enticed to want to hear news on me. Why can't  I just have that again? Why can't it just come back to me? Not that it should, I don't necessarily deserve my life to go swimmingly and have a whale of a time for my entire existence. But God, I've been going through so much, I just could use atleast one good thing, and I want it to be him back.

Call me obsessed, which maybe I am, but again we were friends for 3+ years, were not entirely strangers. All of them last at most a year and then I have to try again. It's him and my ex boyfriend who had broken up with me despite me having much more justifiable reasons to break up with him that I won't get into. To make a long story short on that: my throat hurt and I didn't ask for it to.

All in all, I just want to talk my friend again.

Okie dokie, I'm off to wander the endless mountain valley! Buh bye!!!!!:3