try to understand myself

oh man life was tough latetly, so much so that it has affected all areas of my life. i finally went to a psychiatrist again, maybe i have borderline personality disorder, but whatever, the main thing is that i am now taking medication and trying to go to therapy. i tried going to a psychologist, but i didn't really like it. but that doesn't mean that i should stop looking for help. 

i'm glad that despite the fact that I don't care about most things in my life right now, i'm still trying to do something about it. of course, not without the help of my close people. i'm very grateful to have such persons in my life. 

but if there is someone reading this who also feels like life is meaningless, or that you are stuck somewhere, know that you are not alone. and know that there is a way out of this. we can do it. 

you know how the 21 pilots sang: 

now the night is coming to an end 

       the sun will rise snd we will try again

              stay alive stay alive for me. 

do not suffer alone, there are always people who will be here for you!

good night <3