poem #2

i hovered over your bed

to watch you toss and turn your head

your half lidded glassy eyes

while holding back the tears i hide

my mind suddenly went blank

could all of this had been fake?

they were all surrounding you

and it felt like our time together flew

i didn't know it'd happen so soon

i was going crazy once i knew

b-cell, chemo, radiation and mass

all these words i had to learn in a flash

during the first night you were gone

i curled in my bed and i cried alone

i was hurt and didn't know what to do

my mind was constantly thinking about you

back to present i seen you struggling

my heart was racing and he started yelling

once she was here with us you slowed down more

and once i knew it i dropped to the floor

i screamed and cried and covered my eyes

holding my knees up drowning in tears

you were so strong but there was no closure

samantha i couldn't believe it was over

i regretted staying in the room

i was afraid of seeing you

he finally shut off the oxygen concentrator

but that deafening silence was not what i prayed for

@sesamesobased

to my big sister samantha

(16/5/2006-14/11/24) 🕊️