HELPPPPP

There's this guy at my work that I have a big crush on and tbh I feel like I need to scream into the void of the internet about it because I like him SMMMM. I've written in my diary about it but it feels like an echo chamber I need to be self conscious about it knowing its in the public eye. (sort of)

It all started almost a week after I went on a date with our other coworker. It went well in my opinion but we never spoke afterwards and were both adults so I figured either he wasn't interested or is just quite immature. 

Anyways, we had a work bowling party and the guy I had gone on a date with didn't go. I was honestly thinking about dipping until the guy I now have a crush on showed up and waved to me. We have been friends for a while but I never realized how cute he was until I saw him outside of work, in his normal everyday outfit. While we were bowling, I don't know what it was but it was just something about him that was so asdufkajsklflasjfk. 

Anyways, I couldn't stop thinking about him all night, and the next day, to take my mind off things, I decided to go to a cafe to paint. So I was painting outside this cafe with 2 of my friends and I hear his voice behind me. When he walked by I got his attention and he said it was good to see me and went on his way. There was a girl with him, who I was worried he might be interested, but then I remembered that he lives with a girl roommate who he wasn't involved with romantically and I figured it was probably her. 

It was so crazy running into him there because we never see each other out and about, also, I'm very spiritual and I believe in manifesting and all that, and I saw legit SO MANY angel numbers. We always talk at work but I've been looking forward to it a lot more recently because hes so cutesy. 

anyways after asking around at my job and stalking his insta likes, I found out that he previously had a crush on one of the girls who used to work with us, but she had rejected him, and stopped working there since she was a seasonal employee. But this confirmed two things to me. He's not gay, and, he's single!! or at least he was as of about a month ago. 

BUT I stalked his schedule and he's taking PTO on Valentine's day, so I MIGHT be screwed. anyways, I found that out just now and i'm honestly dizzy and lightheaded. MAYBE I don't wanna go to work tomorrow. 

But its ok if he is in a relationship its probably nothing serious since it hasn't been that long, and I know I'm his type, plus, I'm currently the only single girl working there and he DOES get work crushes from what I've gathered. I need to take some deep breaths and TRUST. That it's all gonna be ok. 

Am I being delulu or do I actually have a chance? 

he's 6'5 by the way I can't fumble this.