Dating in 2025: why I think its too much energy consuming

I would like to say before that this does not apply to every relationships but mostly my own personal experiences so if you have better experiences that would convince me to not give up dating, I'm all ears!!

So for most of my life, I've met a lot of people, don't get me wrong I'm not a player or a "bop" I just find people interesting and always craved relationships. Sadly I've only had one semi-long relationship (only one year when I was 14-15 year olds) out of the about id say 8 relationship I've been in since I was 12( I am currently 18). I love the process of starting to get to know someone but as soon as I get in a relation I start feeling miserable, not because of the person im with, but because I find it so time and energy consuming. I'm a person who values her alone time but I like to at least text once a day so I know that my partner is still alive right? Anyways, I've been with a lot of people and in my opinion they were either too clingy or not interested enough. It's those new dating rules people have these days, im not allowed to have close friends of the opposite gender, I have to wait 3 months before first saying "I love you", I have to have known the person for 6 months before dating, I have to let them through all my stuff, etc etc... Im tired! Why can't I just love someone the way I want to while still being my own person? Am I just not meant to be in a relationship? If I love someone sure I'll let them know and do everything to make sure they're comfortable, but there's limits!! I don't want to see my partner everyday not because I don't like them, but because I need a break from time to time. I also don't like to be controlled and have to tell someone where I am all the time so they don't think im cheating, even my mom doesn't ask where I am! Sure I'll tell them if I had something planned with people, but if im just chilling in my room I don't think I have to prove it! Cheaters ruined love, now I'm stuck with all those rules to prove to someone I love that im loyal. Also fuck the 6 months wait rules, if I love someone I'll show it as soon as I can, because you never know when they could leave. I am tired and I wish I could just love someone and stay my own person. And don't even get me started on break up drama!I think its stupid that two people should avoid each other after a normal break up and make their friends pick sides, if you guys loved each other as much as you said you did, you'd still care and be able to be in the same room without killing each other. Love shouldn't turn into hatred because you're not dating someone anymore.

Anyways that was my opinion on the drama of dating in 2025. I want you guys opinions!!!