Future? or a fear of unknown? (idrk how to name this post)

Hello there, people of spacehey! I decided to show up here after a break of 3 months, wouldn't really call it a break bcause I just didn't log in here or smth like that. I don't really know if i chose the right category, but it pretty much applies to this post I think.

When I log on my profile after a break, I saw that in "about me" section was my age (15) and I realised that I'm 16 and to be honest almost 17 now. I don't feel like I'm almost 17, like I know once you turn smth y.o. you don't really change and feel exactly the same like the previous age, or maybe it just me and others don't feel like it idrk. I just thought that once you get closer to an adult age something changes, you get more mature, but I don't really notice it. Like when I compare myself to a 14 or 13 y.o. self I see the difference, but more and more I get to the adult ages the little difference gets. But that's not what I really wanted to write about.

I'm a bit scared of what's awaiting me in the future, in the adilthood. I still haven't decided on what my job would be or what speciliality in univercity I would be in. I just find it difficut to choose. I'm most probably not the one that has this problem, but there is some people in my social circle that have decided on who they are going to be almost from the early childhood, I don't really know how it feels because in my childhood I haven't know either. I'll, of course, decide on who am I going to be, but I just need some time to get to know myself better.

Also I haven't really wrote smth personal like that ever on the internet, personal imo, maybe some of you would think this wasn't personal at all, but I don't post smth like that on internet tho.

Thank you for reading this post, if someone even reads it, lol. Have a blinky