really wondering how long ill be 'online' for

it's tough to word, but i think that the internet has consumed a lot of people in todays day and age. like, its gotten to a point where we don't even realize it's apart of our lives. think of it being akin to some sort of tradition, or ritual.

time to check my phone and doomscroll for an hour and a half! it's not healthy. but for a lot of people who struggle with socializing, it's an escape. bittersweet. i eat my own words when i type this but i think people should just stop caring. for a lot of people, they're young. they still have all the time in the world to decide what they wanna do and who they wanna be. but, still, that fear that creeps in of 'guilt' or stress for not deciding eats at people. myself included, sometimes. 

it doesn't help at all that the life that we're devolving into from a geopolitical standpoint doesn't help. we're living in an era that is shifting into far-right extremism and misinformation is so so dangerous.

anyway; im rambling, but that's what blogs are for, right?