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Cluster B Personality Disorders (Q&A)
I kinda feel odd making this blog because it goes into detail abt how I actually think and Iβd honestly rather keep that a secret because it rubs ppl the wrong way sometimes, but I've always wanted to answer ppl's questions abt certain personality disorders (specifically overly demonized disorders) so I'm doing it anyways :3
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So hello !! Iβm officially diagnosed with two Cluster B personality disorders.
I have Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) and Antisocial Personality Disorder
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Now usually I donβt talk abt my disorders because it causes ppl to automatically think Iβm a terrible person without even knowing me and they either unfriend me or become super distant, but I feel like itβs important that I talk abt it because there's a lot of misconceptions abt these disorders that I wanna clear up :]
Plz ask if u have any questions !!!
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γγ‘γ
What is your empathy like? Like do you feel empathy at all? I know this is probably one of the most frequently asked questions but I'm always curious to know how different narcissist and sociopaths feel empathy, since it's usually different for each person :3
No it's okay lol.
And personally, I don't think I experience empathy at all. I feel sympathy and compassion but no empathy. I'm pretty sure I've never experienced empathy before, even as a child.
by milkb0y .α; ; Report
Ohhh okayy ^w^
What about guilt? Do you experience guilt at all or maybe only sometimes?
by γγ‘γ; ; Report
It kinda depends ig. Like, I usually don't feel guilt when it's towards someone I'm not close enough to.
If it's someone I consider a close friend, I will most likely feel guilty if I hurt them.
by milkb0y .α; ; Report
Do you discard people? I've heard a sociopath on youtube talk about discarding people a lot before. (Ik you're not a full on sociopath but if feel like it's very similar to being a narcissist)
Also sorry for asking so many questions!! I just love talking about mental health related topics :>>
by γγ‘γ; ; Report
It's alright. I made this blog for ppl to ask questions lol.
And yeah unfortunately I do discard ppl sometimes. I did it a lot more as a child/teenager. I would just cut contact with any of my friends when I wasn't getting anymore benefits from them.
All relationships for me have to have some sort of benefits. I don't just make friends just to make friends. I have to be getting something specific out of it unfortunately. :'D
by milkb0y .α; ; Report
O right haha
How does it feel to cut people off? Is it hard for you or do you not feel anything towards it and just move on with your life?
by γγ‘γ; ; Report
It was never hard when I was younger, but now that I specifically make friends that give me benefits, it's a lot harder to cut them off because, if I lose that person, I lose the benefits that came with them.
Sorry if that sounds harsh btw, love for me is very transactional
by milkb0y .α; ; Report
I understand hehe. I try not to let stuff like that get to me because it's not your fault that your brain works this way ^^
This might be an odd question but do your eyes go black when you're extremely angry?
by γγ‘γ; ; Report
huh ??
by milkb0y .α; ; Report
I know it sounds crazy lol!! But I was looking it up and it's actually when narcissists go into narc rage, their pupils dilate really big and it makes their eye's appear black.
https://manipulationships.com/narcissists-eyes/ - (Just in case you wanted to read up on it as well :>)
But yeah, have your eyes ever appeared "black" during a rage episode?
by γγ‘γ; ; Report
I honestly wouldn't know because I don't really look at myself in mirrors during my lil rage episodes :'3.
I prob wouldn't be able to see it anyways because my eyes are already pretty dark lol
by milkb0y .α; ; Report
Yeah nvm that makes sense lol
Hmmm...Have you ever gone through a serious bout of narc rage before?
by γγ‘γ; ; Report
Yeah :']
by milkb0y .α; ; Report
Is it okay if I ask how those went? Like what you did while you were raging?
You don't have to answer if it's too uncomfortable or personal!!!
I've just been writing a lot about Cluster B personality disorders specifically and I've been talking to different people with these disorders about their experiences
by γγ‘γ; ; Report
No worries :]
I've gotten ppl fired from jobs, gotten multiple ppl expelled from school, damaged belongings, yelled at ppl, h*rmed myself for attention, framed classmates, physically hurt ppl, and even broke my mother's car's back windshield.
I know this makes me look like a complete asshole but I'm trying to get better I swear T^T
by milkb0y .α; ; Report
It's okay I'm not blaming you or anything :>>
I can tell you're trying to get better. Most people with a Cluster B disorder would never even admit that they have them, so you being very outspoken about it is a really big step!!
by γγ‘γ; ; Report
Thx :]
Therapy has helped a bunch :33
by milkb0y .α; ; Report