hate life ... [vent]

agghaghh goshh im so sad rn (＞﹏＜) my best friend doesnt like me that much anymore and she has her own friends that she likes more than me... idk what to do... she just ignores me sometimes and she seems like she doesnt wanna talk to mee :< aaaa i hate myself smm it was my fault that she doesnt like me .·´¯`(>n<)´¯`·.  i just want everything to be better than before...ik im probz just overthinking but i cant help itt..

i also feel so guilty for ignoring one of my friends just cuz she didnt respond to my message for 4 days..and idk how to talk to her now (；′⌒`) i feel like im such a burden to everybody... i cant handle having to bottle up my feelings everytime, when i do vent to someone i just start to crash out n all... then they would hate me... aaghghhh !!! o(TヘTo) im so tired of living...

i just wanna socialize with ppl normally, i hate how weird i am sometimes...